meh...

Do you ever wonder if anyone else ignores the cat poop in the bathroom because you somehow convince yourself that if you pretend it's not there, it will magically disappear?
Does anyone ever feel like there are not enough hours in the day to clean this cat poop so you, instead, proceed sit in front of your computer, doing mindless things for 4 hours?
Do you wonder if anyone else approaches practically everything in life this way:
Bills, homework, the trash, calling your mom.

Do you ever wonder if other people are hypochondriacs too?
What they do when they start feeling brain fog
Or how in the world they get themselves to start doing work when their head is pounding and they're stressed?
Does anyone else get overwhelmed about 3 months into doing any type of work, feeling like they can start things very well, wow everyone at an interview and give great first impressions and then slowly begin to wither and let people down---
Oh, and letting people down. Is there anyone else who's consistently under the impression that everyone's mad at you, frustrated with you and deems you generally incompetent to then let an overwhelming sense of defeat paralyze you, making this cycle a self-fulfilling prophesy?

I'm such a mess.

But I've realized that all it takes to get that spotless bathroom you've always wanted is precisely to clean things when they happen so that in a week you won't be running away from it even faster when it gets even more gross.
And to get that spotless credit report you never thought possible means paying the bill right when you remember to and not putting it off.
And to write that paper you're so overwhelmed by means that you need to start it now, just look at it, start reading, do something about it because the overwhelming stress will not magically disappear, nor will the cat poop, nor will the bills that are due. Just do it.